Jumat, 31 Mei 2013

2 Hours Left

2 h o u r s l e s s l e f t b e f o r e t h e y a n n o u n c e t h e r e s u l t ;

i didnt cheat so i hope i get the proper payback  //

//watch out i'm drama-ing over here-_-  v but i just described student's desperate feels hehe
my stomach just get churned, my heart do backflip and flutter all the time. fear, worry, doubtfulness wash all over me. i just can't stop think about this. i even can't sleep. i afraid if i close my eyes and in the morning i see their disappointed face. they said they will still love me whatever the upcoming is, we prayed together and they asked for my best score, they hugged me tightly, stroked my hair, patted my back. they genuinely showed their love to me and those just make me feel even worry. what if i can't lift their smile up? what if i fail and incur the tuition? i will be a bad lass. i will be a burden. i will be their sorrow. i didn't ask for new phone. i also didn't want any gadget or else. just give me this gift, i want to reach the good score, i want to pass the potential academic test, i want my name listed as a student in one favorite high school, and i desperately want to make my parents smile proudly at me. in the end, all i can do is pray. the only thing calm me is hope. and the only One who can solve and help me is just God.

but whatever it is, i know God lead to the perfect way. i believe

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